But I am more beautiful at 40 than I was at 20. How can this be so?
- At 20, I had no idea what I wanted to do or be in my life. At 40, I have finally not only found my path, I am walking on it.
- At 20, I was self-conscious and plagued by self-doubt. At 40, I am comfortable in my own skin and happy with who and what I am.
- At 20, I stuffed my body into multiple layers of baggy clothes because I thought I was too heavy. At 40, I do not hide my body in oversized clothes, but wear things that accentuate its strengths – curves and all!
- At 20, I couldn’t run a mile. At 40, I can run 10.
- At 20, I thought my body was weak. At 40, I know it’s power, for I have borne two children (one without benefit of drugs!), fattened them from my breasts, and have gone on to run a half marathon, take up yoga, ski better than I ever have, hike, gallop a horse, and so on. And I can STILL do the splits!
- At 20, I concerned myself with what others thought of me. At 40, I concern myself with what I think of me.
- At 20, I saw things in black and white. At 40, I see things in a thousand shades of gray.
I do not mean to criticize my 20 year-old self. She did the best she could with what she had at the time. She had her strengths and her moments of greatness. But I now know that beauty is rooted in confidence, and confidence is something I have in far greater abundance at 40 than I did at 20. True beauty does come from within and radiates out. Beauty that goes in the opposite direction is at best, fleeting and at worst, false.
I participated in this blogfest to celebrate the many beautiful women I am blessed to call family and friends. It seems appropriate that in February, the month of love, we turn that love toward ourselves and rejoice in the beauty we are.
One of those beautiful friends is August McLaughlin, the creator of the blogfest. She recently shared one of the most incredible, touching and brave stories I’ve ever read, and it was that story which inspired me to take part in this blogfest. It’s called, Does Dirt Have Calories? Read it.
Also, be sure to go to August’s blog tomorrow to read many more inspiring stories of the Beauty of a Woman.
Categories: Writing · Tags: Aging, August McLaughlin, Beauty, Beauty of a Woman Blogfest, Blogfest, Blogging, Julie Hedlund, Writer